FEAR

Fear… it’s so paralyzing at times. This morning I woke at 3 am when David left for work and my mind is whirling. I think of all the need to dos and take my eyes off the goal, which is serving the Lord. Discouragement is a daily adversary! We are so human, we keep reminding ourselves but it’s so hard. It’s only been a few weeks, but World Hope hasn’t received any funds for us yet, the house hasn’t sparked much interest and we just want it all NOW! We have received many return postcards pledging prayer and financial support and we know God is in this BUT… I want to appreciate each day and what we are learning but it’s so hard.

I “interviewed” a potential new family for our dogs. This is difficult! I talk about leaving them but I can’t imagine doing it when the time comes. As I mentioned, we feel we are ready now but in another I know we are not prepared yet. God is guiding us through each day and preparing us, I just have to keep reminding myself.

We attended our nieces’ wedding on Saturday and had the opportunity to see a lot of family members and share with them. It was a great opportunity to get together with some we might not see before we leave. Lots of mixed reactions, some are very excited for us and others think we are crazy!

One thing that has become apparent to us during the last month is how much “we” (as a society) feel we are defined by our jobs or our social status. It’s as though people think that when we leave our jobs, we will leave who we are. It’s hard for me to speak of myself in this sense, but when I look at David… I have never looked at him as a semi-truck driver, he’s a wonderful and caring man who has a heart for God. He’s rather shy and when he stood up last Sunday in our church and spoke of his desire to follow God’s will I was so proud of the man he is.

We are traveling to North Shore Church this weekend, please pray that we have a safe trip and that our message is well received. We are still trying to find malaria medication that is effective in Africa, doesn't make you feel sick and is inexpensive. The current medication we have found is $165 per month per person. Please pray that we find a less expensive solution. Thanks for sharing in our journey!