Today as we packed up to leave camp I was overwhelmed with emotion. We were leaving our campsite with the knowledge that if it is God’s will we won’t be returning there next year. Family camp has been a constant in our lives for 8 years. We looked forward each year to a spiritual revitalization during that week. .
On the way home I began creating For Sale fliers for many of our things and once again was struck by fear. It is so hard for me to admit that as much as I want to follow God and his will for my life, I’m scared. David seems so peaceful and he is such an example for me. I realize as I pray for peace that many of my fears are coming from my childhood. Never feeling secure or settled growing up I have spent my adult life trying to create a safe and predictable environment around me. As a child we moved constantly (back and forth across the US 13 times) and I never felt anywhere was home. Not being raised a Christian I did not realize that there was a God to trust and rely in so I looked toward material things and consistency to comfort me.
God has blessed David and I with healthy sons, a beautiful home, and we each have secure and stable jobs. Our health insurance is wonderful and over the years we have accumulated so many “things”. Over the last four or five years we have noticed a hole in our lives that seems to be getting bigger and bigger. We talked of it but couldn’t put our finger on what it was. We actually purchased a few more things thinking maybe we were missing that one special thing. The past few years or so we have been feeling like we just existed, not unhappy but not satisfied. Working hard to pay for and keep up all those THINGS!!! After all the years of hard work, of having achieved the so called American dream why were we not happy?
We have had many talks, most of them occurring while lying in bed ready for sleep about where were we going, what was God trying to tell us? The more we talked the more we realized that the times we were the happiest and at peace were when we were serving God on the mission field. At those times we were not encumbered with all those things and there were no obstacles between us and God. We believe that God has been preparing us for many years for this opportunity.
As we got closer to home today, we both felt so excited and encouraged. When we arrived home we discovered that a hose had come off the filter to the pool and we lost over 3000 gallons of water and the pump was running dry. Then to put the icing on the cake, the farmer chose today to harvest his wheat field. After the initial shock and dismay we began to see the good in this. Thank goodness the pump did not burn up and we were home to clean the pool and get the filter running to collect all the chaf from the wheat. I have no doubt Satan does not like the good that is happening and he will continue to throw problems at us We prayed, asked his help and two good friends came over to help us out. We cleaned the camper out, posted the for sale signs and pulled it out on the Rt 223 for people to see. God is good, ALL THE TIME!!!
Please remember us in your prayers as we work this week to get everything ready to be sold.
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